UNDO, Ctrl-Z for most application. If only life itself has the power for a few UNDOs. UNDO that momment when someone close to you decided to have an overdose of medication; UNDO that second when your grandparent fell. Consequences of both incidents? Extended stay in the hospital...
The first stated incident snowballed to an extended outpour of feelings, thoughts, tears and sleeplessness. It is emotionally draining and it just emphasized the fact that "How well do you really know the people whom you are close to?" Seriously? Not even close to 70%? At least, that is what I thought. Maybe I am the one blinded and unable to look past the painted 'mask'. But then again, if one does not show the true self around your closest people, then when will the real face be unmasked?
Life's really short... is there ALWAYS other ways to solve whatever mind-boggling issues one is having? Have been asked, "If the person is really suffering for a long long time, wouldn't it be a better if the person's life is shortened by his choice?" Seriously, is there ALWAYS a solution to problem? In my opinon, yes. But then again, maybe I have not been through what the person has been through before. *touch wood*, I guess I would not want to go through it...
The second.. sigh.. old age + a fall direct on the back of her head = blood clot in the brain. The worst is the doctor actually projected the thought that she can be discharged if she really do not want to stay... I cannot imagine what will happen if my grandma has been discharged. A fall on the back of the head actually caused a blood clot on the forehead, which can be live threatening.. not "can be", should be "is" live threatening..
Just a few momments before, she is happily moving on her own in her place. Now, she's lying in the hospital, life's supported by machines and with a hole in the brain (not hole.. well, I do not know the medical term to it).
Sigh.. life's short.. and full of surprises..
Friday, August 17, 2007
Friday, August 10, 2007
...In Memory of my Dear Cousin...
"Life's short" is something I've always been telling people around me. Guessed a lot of people already know this. But I cannot help emphasizing much on this. I guess it really take certain event(s) to make one realize the impact of this. Well, the lost of my cousin last year really does make its impact on us... Was kinda thinking of him recently and was sad that I did not even have a chance to let him know that he was really a darn good cousin, in more than one way. That brings me to think that, one should really let the people around you know how u feel about them. Well, life's full of surprises, be it good or bad. You would not know when the chance might slip from you.
I missed the chance of meeting him and wishing him a happy chinese new year during the Chinese New Year last year. The worst thing might be the last conversation I have had with him. I was commenting to him "Gor, you are very plumb", when I actually meant to say "Gor, you are very white". Hahaha. the word "plumb" just slip out of my mouth, and I did corrected myself right after. Being the happy-go-lucky cousin, he simply laugh it off. That's how he was. Oh, at that time, he did packed on a few more extra "luggage" around his waist.
He was the one who helped me with my bike selection (and I cannnot emphasize how troublesome the process was), helped me when I have had a minor bike accident and helped me gained alot of technical knowledge of riding a bike safely. All these closeness started when we were older. I guessed we matured along the way and thus the better relationship we have had.
I used to think that he hated me alot. In fact, my crossed out faces on many family photos did lead me to think that he hated me to the core. Which I do not know the reason why. Seriously, till now, I do not know the reason why. Maybe I was pretty darn ugly as a little girl. Or that I was a darn cry baby who always get him into trouble? All these, I would not have a chance to verify anymore. It would always be anyone's guess... Or rather, it would only be my guess..
Well, to get to the point, he's no longer around. And he left behind alot of people who are still griefing and missing him. His memory will always be with us.. :)
Life's real darn short. And not forgetting the many surprises it holds...
I missed the chance of meeting him and wishing him a happy chinese new year during the Chinese New Year last year. The worst thing might be the last conversation I have had with him. I was commenting to him "Gor, you are very plumb", when I actually meant to say "Gor, you are very white". Hahaha. the word "plumb" just slip out of my mouth, and I did corrected myself right after. Being the happy-go-lucky cousin, he simply laugh it off. That's how he was. Oh, at that time, he did packed on a few more extra "luggage" around his waist.
He was the one who helped me with my bike selection (and I cannnot emphasize how troublesome the process was), helped me when I have had a minor bike accident and helped me gained alot of technical knowledge of riding a bike safely. All these closeness started when we were older. I guessed we matured along the way and thus the better relationship we have had.
I used to think that he hated me alot. In fact, my crossed out faces on many family photos did lead me to think that he hated me to the core. Which I do not know the reason why. Seriously, till now, I do not know the reason why. Maybe I was pretty darn ugly as a little girl. Or that I was a darn cry baby who always get him into trouble? All these, I would not have a chance to verify anymore. It would always be anyone's guess... Or rather, it would only be my guess..
Well, to get to the point, he's no longer around. And he left behind alot of people who are still griefing and missing him. His memory will always be with us.. :)
Life's real darn short. And not forgetting the many surprises it holds...
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